...it stuck like that? i think its called childhood. yep, my poem is added
i watched alot of movies, petes dragon been one of them! its weird... no one was online since they were at claires and me with lack of invitation. i shaved for the first time today, it was really depressing.
i always thought i would shave first with my dad, you know like the bonding way. where like i cut myself we both laugh then he tells me he loves me and i tell him i love him and call him "dad" like i mean it blah, blah, blah i guess divorce really breaks alot of simple memories, hopes and probley hearts.
it must be harder for girls because they have all that other stuff and its not like we need help with our stuff, its just for memories and bonding.
but in divorce its mainly always living with the mom so girls are ok.
so i ask myself.
we was there for first word, first steps, first bike and the first time i stayed up late and watched movies.
hes in for the infancy, what about the teenage? puberty? will he see my first car? first job?
first time i get my heart broken and need a sholder to cry on?
will he see my first speech...
...the first time when i say something that sticks with you forever, a toast to my mom and dad. it seems to be just my mom.
if i get marride and divorced i promise i wont miss my childrens first true happy memories, i will be the dad thats not funny and quite embarrising but they will still look up at me when we first do something together.
first finger painting, first steps, first time we both say i love you and call me father instead of dad.
because i dont think i could live if my childrens called me daniel.